dewey decimals & famous people

well, i survived my first day working at the ramona public library yesterday. to tell you the truth, i did more than survive it; i actually enjoyed it! i am the kind of person that worries a lot. okay, i worry way too much. it took me months after our 2nd wedding to finally stop having nightmares that i was getting married AGAIN, and had forgotten to send out the invitations. (for those of you who don't know, josh and i had two weddings. kind of a long story, won't get into it here) i also get nervous in new situations, though i think that it's normal for most people to get nervous on their first day at a new job. well, the entire day yesterday, i kept expecting my stomach to start getting butterflies at any moment. it never did. not even so much as a twinge of nervousness entered my stomach, or my mind, or any other area of myself that could be affected by nervousness. even as i was walking up to the library doors, ready to go in, no butterflies! i nearly began to get worried about why i wasn't getting nervous, of all things, thinking that something was wrong with me. instead, i just enjoyed my new found calm, quite proud of myself, really, though still a little suspicious of it.

i remained calm the entire time! even through pressing the wrong button on the computer, causing it to make a horrible high pitched noise and through accidentally disconnecting myself from the branch supervisor on the phone several times. i made it through day one, and now am just awaiting a call for when they need me next. hurrah! it was kind of odd to come home and have josh waiting there for me, for once. odd, but lovely. he hugged me and asked me to tell him all about my first day, so i did (probably getting into more detail than he was wanting to hear) and at the end of it all, i told him how weird it was that i was so calm all day, never getting nervous. he smiled and his eyes lit up and he told me, "that's because all day i was praying for you, that you wouldn't feel a bit nervous!" (after he said that, i gave him a big, fat kiss) so, mystery solved! i am so grateful to God for providing me with His perfect peace, as well as with such a wonderful husband, who knows exactly where my weaknesses are, and what he can do to help them.

here's something interesting. josh and i don't have tv. i mean, we have a television to watch movies on, but we don't have cable or anything. well, over christmas, we housesat for a couple that does have tv. we have gone for so long without it, that we'd just sit in front of it, like zombies, unable to turn it off, even if there was absolutely nothing on! anyhow, while in one of our zombie-like states, for a brief moment, i saw a girl on tv who i just knew that i knew. i told josh that i knew her, but i often think that movie stars resemble people that i know, so i don't think he believed me. i brought it up in one of my conversations with my best friend, darla, pleading with her to agree with me, but she told me i must be wrong. so i decided to do a bit of investigating on my own. well, na-na-na-nana! turns out i was right! the girl's name is evangeline lily and she is on some tv show called "lost". her real name is nicole lily and she and her family used to go to central heights church, back in the early 90's. i'm positive it's her because i got my mom to look up her family in the old church directory, and it turns out that her grandma's name was evangeline. ta da! i kind of wish i had told more people and they hadn't believed me so i could say, "so there!" (sometimes i'm not a nice person)

now its time for me to go for a very vigorous walk because (i am embarassed to admit this, so soon after new year's) i ate a cinnamon bun and pringles chips for lunch and now i feel absolutely disgusting. it is warm and sunny outside and i can see nothing but blue sky from here. perfect

~heidi, un-frumpy library girl