a wednesday kind of blog

as i am writing this, its 3:03 and in less than one hour, i have to go work at the library. i haven't had cause to dread work in a very long time, so this feeling is rather new to me. before moving here, i worked at the same job for 7 years, and i cannot remember a day that i dreaded going to work, except for maybe when i was 17 years old and had just started and was deathly afraid of the customers. i think that when i applied to work at the library, i was under the assumption that it would be just like my old job. you know, bookstore, library... same thing! i have found that i was horribly wrong. first of all, i keep making the mistake of calling the people that come up to the circulation desk to check out books, "customers". that is wrong. and a very bad thing, according to my boss lady. they are not "customers", they are "the public". right. then there's the rule that i'm not allowed to help people at all! i must stay behind the circulation desk and if "the public" wants to know where a certain book is, i'm not allowed to help them find it! i must either refer them to the librarian, or POINT them in the right direction. at the bookstore, pointing was a big no-no. working at the library is kind of like working at my old job with all of the fun things taken out of it, like helping people find books, and organizing the shelves, and WALKING AROUND, for goodness sake, and even talking in an audible voice! i was there last night for 2 hours and it felt like 10!

to make matters worse, i had sliced my thumb while cutting lettuce earlier that evening. i admit, i can be a bit of a baby, especially when it comes to things happening to my fingers...they are just SO sensitive! so i ran upstairs with blood dripping and showed it to josh, who very calmly wrapped it up in a band aid and continued on what he was doing. it did hinder my work at the library slightly, (isn't it funny how we never realize how much we use a certain finger until it is rendered useless?) but hindered my shuffling abilities even more. i have succeeded in getting josh addicted to the game "dutch blitz". (it's a vonderful goot game!) i think every single mennonite in canada is also addicted to this game, but don't tell josh that. he has been kicking my butt at it, but last night, bad thumb and all, i BEAT him!!! this thrills my heart because it's the first game that i've found that i might be better than him at. the thing that bugs me, though, is that we often say things like, "okay, whoever wins this game gets a 10 minute back massage". and everytime we say that, of course HE wins. but then, the times where i'm like, "no, lets not have a prize for the winner", of course, I win. what is up with that? oooh, maybe he lets me win? no, i cannot think of that, it's too awful a thought.

well, not much else is new except i had the lovliest conversation with my newly engaged friend, leah this morning who is moving to...get this...tuscany!! where her fiance lives!! (does fiance have 2 e's?) but not before she has the most fun sounding wedding this summer, which i will do my best to attend. (hooray!) she also started a blog, but is now having technical difficulties with it, since she forgot her password. once it's up and running, i'll have to ask computer geniuses cara and denise how to post links on my blog. oh, and one more thing... PLEASE COMMENT TO MR. STEW!!! i know there's more of you out there who read my blog and you have NO excuse not to comment. unless, of course you don't want to read what my husband has to say. but i think you do, so COMMENT! okay, enough begging. i need to get this dreaded job over with.

~heidi, Reigning Dutch Blitz Champion of the Stewart Household