i have something i have to admit, though it pains me to do so. throughout the past 3 months, as my little babe has been growing inside of me, i have tried my utmost to eat healthier. not that i was eating total junk before, mind you, but i wouldn't hesitate to down a glass of pepsi with dinner and then pull out a bag of doritos afterwards. at first, it really wasn't that hard to change. i stocked up on lots and lots of fresh fruit and veggies and snacked on those instead of on unhealthy things. the only problem is, a stick of celery is great and all, but when a sudden craving hits my brain like a bullet, i find myself nearly powerless to stop myself from eating that particular thing ASAP. i have never had a craving for celery. nor for carrots or green beans or broccoli, funny as that is.
so, here is my confession: three days ago i had a super powerful craving for a mcdonalds sausage mcmuffin. i was at work at the time and the craving was so strong i found it nearly painful to abstain. abstain i did, however, and by the time 11.00 rolled around i knew i was safe because breakfast at mcdonalds is not served that late. the very next morning i had the same craving. my mouth was literally watering just thinking about that juicy sausage cradled between two halves of an english muffin, drenched in melted cheese. again, i abstained and felt very proud of myself for doing so. then yesterday morning came. i was about to leave for work when the same saliva-inducing craving hit. i was weary of the battle, so i decided to wave the white flag and be done with it. i looked at my watch and figured if i left for work a few minutes early, i could go through the drive thru on my way. i have never gotten ready for work so fast. i was in my car and on my way 15 minutes early! not only did i order a sausage mcmuffin, but i also indulged in coffee (decaf, of course) and some extremely greasy and delicious hash browns. i scarfed that meal down so quick and it tasted every bit as good as i had imagined it. ahh, nothing quite like satisfying a craving.
there was only one problem (besides my growing guilt) left. i was still craving it. how could this be? i didn't even feel very hungry anymore, but somehow my mind would not let it go. i arrived at work in record time and sat in my car debating. it didn't take me too long to make up my mind. away i went to the nearest drive thru and bought ANOTHER juicy sausage mcmuffin. i quickly devoured it, then walked into work 5 minutes early, worridly awaiting the next onslaught of cravings. thankfully, they never came. my cravings were appeased that morning and, i hope very dearly, that they will stay that way for the next 6 months!