okay, i have to vent here: i was in the grocery store on sunday with josh and tristan, going through the checkout lineup. there's a sweet clerk who works there and she always coo's over tristan and when i see her working, i like to go through her line. so, we chatted for a bit, relieved to hear the neither of our houses burned, and she said how cute tristan was looking etc. etc. and then she said it...the question NOBODY should ever ask a female (or a male, for that matter). she said, "when are you due?" the smile froze on my face as i said "pardon me?" thinking that perhaps her poor english had something to do with getting her words mixed up. she patted her belly and said, "you having another baby?" i did my best to laugh graciously while saying "oh no, not yet!" josh chimed in, trying to ease the awkward situation by saying, "soon!" (if it was up to him, i'd be pregnant yesterday). then we were all quiet and i could see that she was super embarassed. i think she must have said "sorry"but i can't quite remember because it was all a blur as my mind whirred with so many thoughts, the main one being "WHY did we just buy that cheesecake?" so there it is. even though i've had no baby in my womb for nearly 10 months, it still looks like i do. lovely. i've not shed a tear about this, but i have gotten myself back on my weight watchers plan from which i strayed weeks ago. big steep hill, here i come again.
in other, happier news: we found a place!!! we just signed the papers yesterday and move in the middle of november. once our town was re-opened after the evacuation, many people found their houses burned to the ground. immediately, rentals all over town were snatched up as families desperately tried to find places to live, so josh and i lost no time in grabbing what we could. fortunately, the place we grabbed is the nicest and most affordable of all the places we looked at. though its smaller than what we're in now, its been completely remodelled inside, has 3 bedrooms and even a bit of a backyard! we've already been blessed with friends and family providing things we need, like couches, washer and dryer, fridge, etc. God is so good! thanks for all of your prayers that we'd find the right place!
tristan was completely ill yesterday, the worst he's ever been. he was feverish and tired and sad all day and it just broke my hear to see him so miserable. all he wanted was to cling to me and lay his head on my chest. he slept most of the day on me, which didn't allow me to get many things done around the house. thankfully, i had just started reading a fabulous novel called "abide with me" by elizabeth strout. its written so eloquently that i want to make sure and read it nice and slowly, savouring every word. so yesterday was a day off of sorts for me, as i cuddled my sick little boy and enjoyed my book.
this is why i've got to stop blogging and actually get some things done today!