Friday, May 27, 2011
i miss blogging
i really do. i miss typing my thoughts out and recording what my kids are doing and saying and reading every one's comments. i feel like this year i've been in such a big blogging rut and i can't quite figure out why. perhaps part of it has to do with the fact that i've chosen not to post photos of my boys' faces, so that limits the amount of "easy picture posts" that i can do. (unless i get creative, like in my last post). i feel as if picture less posts are boring posts, but honestly who wants to look at pictures of my flowers every time i write?
the other reason i think i don't blog more is because i often have random thoughts and ideas to write dancing around in my head that are more suited to a facebook status update than an entire blog post. just small little things that i feel aren't worthwhile to share on their own, so then they just don't get shared at all. and i feel that's a shame mostly for my sake because i rely on my blog so much to look back on in the future and remember what life what like at different stages of my kids' growing up years. so.... i will write a random post today and i'm telling myself that even if my blog becomes only a collection of random posts from here on out, i will still continue to blog. and i'm hoping that writing it out will help me to keep to it!
*josh and i celebrated our 7th anniversary last saturday and had a fabulous time eating dinner at pf changs and then taking dessert home from the cheesecake factory. we did a little bit of shopping, watched a dvd and had a child-free night thanks to his parent's keeping the boys overnight. what i loved the most about our time together was that josh pretty much planned all of it....including 1 hour massages that we get to have tomorrow! yeah, my man rocks.
*next weekend is samuel's 2nd birthday. all 4 of the men in the family will celebrate their birthdays in a joint party on saturday, but i'm going to make cupcakes especially for samuel so that he can blow his own candles out and go to town on his own little cake.
*the following day (sunday), josh and i are attending a wedding of friends of ours. well, josh is doing more than just attending it, he will actually be officiating the ceremony! this will be his first time officiating and he's more than a little nervous, but i'm so proud of him and excited to watch him up there. the boys will again be spending the night at my in-law's which i'm also excited about. we're sure taking advantage of their free babysitting service before the new baby arrives :)
*i have now entered the 3rd trimester of my pregnancy and both my appetite and my weight have been skyrocketing. this seems to be the case with every one of my pregnancies and my mind is just telling me to throw up my hands in surrender and say, "i don't care anymore!" but the truth is that i do. i know very well just how difficult it is for me to lose pounds accumulated during pregnancy. there are many days that i eat way too much of the wrong things, but i don't let myself become a runaway train; instead i do my best to wake up the next morning, knowing that its a brand new day and start fresh with eating clean and healthy. i am also going to start doing hill walking once a week with a good friend of mine, mostly to make sure that i'm not completely out of shape when its time once more to push a baby out.
*this is the first time that i will have a midwife deliver my baby and i'm really happy about that. i've been reading a lot of books written by midwives lately (the baby catcher being my all time favorite) and i feel like i have more knowledge about birth than ever before. i'm not going to declare that i plan on giving birth without an epidural this time, but i do know that i have a say in nearly everything that goes on in the delivery room and that i'm going to use my voice a lot more this time around. i've been watching the show "baby's first day" a lot as well and its really becoming obvious to me that there truly is such a strong link between pitocin lowering a baby's heart rate, causing the need for emergency c-sections. sam's heart rate dipped very low after i was given pitocin (at 8cm dilated! sheesh!!) and knowing what i know now, it makes more sense to me. it seems that so many doctors are in such a hurry for you to have the baby and move on out of there, so i am hopeful that my experience with a midwife will be much more respectful, patient and calmer.
*tristan. wow, he is growing up way too fast. he looks much older than he really is, due to his missing front tooth and his large size, but i love the fact that he still wants to cuddle with me and isn't too grown up for public hugs and kisses. he is extremely bossy, especially with his brother, but also has quite a shy streak that comes out mainly when meeting new people or in new situations. he is so excited about a new baby sister, still insists on calling her "baby bodie" and often talks about how he will help out when she is here. despite growing up, he still comes out with the funniest things at times. he pronounces beer "beard" and the other day he was talking about getting really big and being a daddy. he said, "when i'm a daddy and even bigger than my daddy, i'm going to drink beard." and you know, there's a good chance that he will become bigger than his own daddy (who is 6' 2'') because when we measured him at 2 1/2 and doubled it, the prediction was that he'd be around 6' 5'' as an adult!
*samuel. ever the little monkey. at times endearing, then at times very frustrating. he doesn't technically talk, but the words he does say only we can understand. he now says "no" (which sounds like "oh") and oh my goodness, is he quite the defiant little boy! he has a certain tone of voice that he uses which shows that he already has a bit of an attitude, so we are in the process of nipping that in the bud, though its difficult when most forms of discipline seem to just roll off of his back. he loves big trucks and cars and motorcycles. he also likes horses and baby girls (hoping that will stick around a bit longer) and water and dirt and rocks. he is seriously just all boy, so rough and tumble and tough (for the most part). he's also quite small and has what i think is a very tiny head, so i'm having a difficult time letting josh buzz his hair this summer since i think he will look very very funny. and not in a good way. he is also a cuddler, loves to give kisses and is always the first one to comfort his brother or whoever else may be crying.
*braxton hicks contractions are already coming and going daily, reminding me that these last 2 months will probably fly by quicker than ever. i still don't feel like i'm ready yet, but i know by the end i definitely will. josh is hoping to set up ava's crib this weekend, which i think will make her room look so much more put together. the changing table and rocking chair are already in there along with some hand-me-downs hanging in her closet. i love the fact that this time around i am able to nest; during the last few months of samuel's pregnancy i wasn't able to get anything ready in his room and we didn't even set his crib up until after he was born! the feeling of preparing and readying a place for our baby girl is incredible; it fills me with peace and thankfulness. we are so, very blessed.