Happy Tuesday

okay, so i obviously have decided not to quit blogging. just as i was getting to the peak of my frustration, suddenly comments magically appeared and then, wonder of wonders, i was able to post a picture yesterday!! hooray for the done button! thanks for all of your advice, i had been deleting my internet files, etc. but i think turning the computer off afterwards may have had something to do with it. so i'm smiling now :)

after this morning's phone date with my mom, i must rush off to a very specific address at a very specific time in order to have my "biometrics" captured. (what in the world are biometrics?) we're working on removing the conditions on my resident status ie. get my green card renewed, and the lovely immigration people just have so much fun getting all of us applicants to jump through very tiny hoops. for example, if i miss this appointment at all, even if i'm quite late, my "application will be considered abandoned" which means that the years and money that we've poured into me becoming a permanent resident will all be a waste because i will be deported and will have to start the immigration process all over again. what makes that bit especially fun is that i am KNOWN to get messed up with directions when driving. i have printed out a mapquest map and am leaving with EXTRA time to spare, but i still get butterflies in my tummy when i think "what if i can't find this place??!!

in pregnancy news, tristan is getting a little squished in there (he is apparently close to the size of a football now) and i can feel him kicking me in places other than my tummy. like my bladder for example. at this point, it kind of tickles and feels odd, but i can just imagine how it will feel once his kicks get stronger. i measure my waist every month and so far i'm at 40 inches...i seem to gain about an inch per month. my hair stopped falling out so rapidly right around the 4th month and i'm quite fine with that, as i was beginning to get fearful that tristan would take one long look at his mother with a receding hairline and be tempted to jump right back into my womb! i'm certainly getting that dark line down the center of my abdomen, which keeps getting darker. oh yes, and on the weight gain front, well...according to my bathroom scale, i've already gained 7 lbs since last month's appointment (we see the doctor in one more week) he told me to try and only gain 5 lbs instead of 10. well, i guess that didn't happen, but i am no longer as worried about it as i used to be. especially after hearing my friend sara's mom tell me how she used to get yelled at by her doctor for gaining too much weight, then immediately following the appointment, would purchase and devour 5 donuts in one sitting!

food still beckons and i still eat, i just try not to over do it. for the longest time i've been craving those little hostess cupcakes, you know, the chocolate ones with the creme inside? well, i am proud to say that i have avoided eating even one!!....until josh was in the grocery store with me the other day. we did buy a box. and i have eaten 2. and there are more in the box. but i WILL NOT buy another box! i'm writing this down so that you all can keep me accountable!

one more week till my mom and my aunties come sailing down the coast! VERY much looking forward to spending a whole day with those girls. i hope it's warm so we can splash around in their hotel pool. swimming is supposed to be one of the best exercises for pregnant women. OH MY GOSH, it's nearly time for our phone date and my mom will be calling at any moment.. gotta run!

Me and Tristan at 6 months!

i'm thinking of quitting...

...this whole blogging thing. it has been frustrating me lately. first off, i still can't post pictures and cannot, for the life of me locate my browser cash/creche/crochet thing that i'm supposed to clear. not only that, but i am, for some reason, unable to read anyone's comments anymore. the pop up window comes up when i click on comments, but nothing shows in the box. i just waited 10 whole minutes for jennifer's comments to come up, but they never did. which also means that i am unable to comment on anyone's blog. reading just the post and not the comments feels to me as if i'm the loner girl who is left out while all of the cool kids sit in the corner and chat. because of all of this comment messsing up, i was unable to defend myself by commenting that i really DID NOT forget my best friend's birthday, i only forgot to call her on the day it actually was. i had sent her a card and a gift and everything, so there. i would have also like to let my sister in law cara know how much i appreciated her posting like a gazillion pictures, every one of which made my heart smile. and to let zandra know that even though i feel for her, her post made me laugh hysterically. and to say congrats to my cousins kristy and jeff that they're having another baby....and i could go on and on.

not to mention that i haven't had an ounce of creative-writing inspiration since getting knocked up. and no, i'm not writing all of this in a pouty voice, i'm just letting you all know why i don't blog or comment anymore. just in case you wondered.

little blue socks

so, it's another tuesday already and if i don't blog i'll feel guilty. it's funny how time flies when you don't especially want it to. on one hand, i can hardly wait to meet tristan and love him and cuddle him and be his mommy, but on the other hand, i know that these last few months are really the only moments that josh and i will be spending alone and relaxed for a VERRRRY LOOOONG time and i want to savor them.

we've been super busy lately and when we're not out working or doing something else, we've been watching lost...finished season 1 and now are waiting for people to return the first discs of season 2 to blockbuster so that we can watch them. on sunday we celebrated jessica's birthday at my in law's house. it was a GREAT day, not too hot and we ate a lot of food, sat in the shade, watched the kids run through the garden hose and enjoyed little johnny's bellyflops into the kiddie pool. oh yes, cute story about the kiddie pool. i was able to go up to rob and jessica's house on friday and we took the kids to their community pool. john kept requesting to go to the little pool by saying "meow? meow?" knowing that he meant he wanted to go into the kid's pool, but not knowing why he would call it the "meow", we asked kaylee to interpret for us. she informed us that it was because it was the "kitty pool" as if we all should have know that from the beginning. anyhow, i enjoyed a rather large slice of my mom in law's cheesecake at jessica's birthday without feeling an ounce of guilt. (thanks for your encouraging comments, by the way, they really did help)

*here i would have inserted a beautiful picture of jessica blowing out her birthday candles, but because this stupid blogger beta thing is having issues with remembering to add a "done" button to the screen, it isn't working and now i am severely frustrated.*

last night we went to mike and sara's house to watch the chargers/raiders game. okay, so the guys watched the game and me sara and zandra talked. sara's daughter ryan was quite fascinated with my large belly and kept asking me questions about it. she was shocked that baby tristan was swimming because there was water in my belly and she desperately hoped that there was water in her belly too. she asked if he was cold in the water, and i said "no, he's really warm." "because he's wearing socks." she said confidantly. i could hardly bring myself to correct her.

we now have a highchair and a stroller sitting in our living room, thanks to the generosity of rob and jessica, though john had a rather hard time parting with his stroller. our house that used to seem so big is now becoming increasingly smaller and smaller. how can such small little people take up so much room? speaking of which, his kicks have gotten strong enough to where he wake me up at night with them. not painful yet, though, thank goodness. still feeling good, lots of energy and no weird icky feelings. i think that's all i have to say today.

a wee bit 'o bloggage

so yesterday was another monthly doctor's visit. this time my mom in law was the guest of honor. had to pee in a cup for the first time, to see if i had too much sugar in me. thankfully i'm clever and ate NOT A DROP of sugar that whole day except for what is naturally found in milk and pineapple, so i passed the test! this visit seemed unusually short and rushed, in my opinion. the ultrasound lasted all of 30 seconds and, though we were hoping for verification of his boy parts, that never happened. i was able to ask only one of my 2 questions before the dr whizzed out the door to his next patient. ah well, we all have our bad days...we are just so thankful that tristan is happy and healthy. "content" is the word the doctor used. even though i passed the sugar test, unfortunately i didn't pass the "weight gain" test. i've gained ANOTHER 10 lbs in the past 4 weeks, for a total gain of 20 lbs so far. it's never ever fun for a girl to be told that she weighs too much, especially when she is trying her hardest to take care of the baby inside of her. even though i'm on my feet at work 40 hours per week, i was still told that i must exercise, and of course, limit empty calories, yada yada yada. i've been trying, but obviously i've not been trying hard enough. thats all i'm going to say about that.

on another, happier note, josh felt his son move for the first time last week!! it was quite an exciting event, as every time i'd place his hand on my tummy, tristan would stop kicking which was kind of frustrating. this time, he decided he had played enough games and gave quite a firm kick to josh's hand. since then, he's felt him quite a bit. he says tristan is giving him "high fives". ooh, and we got to register at target on sunday which was really quite fun, though a lot of the stuff we were quite clueless about! (who knew they have a machine that actually heats your baby wipes for you?!) we found some really cute sports themed nursery decor and even though initially we had chosen baseball as the theme, i just couldn't pass by the crib mobile that had little bears playing soccor going round and around. so the theme quickly changed to just sports in general, which makes it easier anyhow. so much for finding neutral decor... if tristan has a sister next, we've just gotta hope that she loves blue!

josh and i finally decided to join the masses and have become addicted to the tv show lost. we've been renting season 1 on dvd and are nearly finished it, which is perfect timing because season 2 just came out on dvd. if we hurry up we'll be done in enough time to catch season 3 on tv. we've been watching it so much that i've been having dreams about it. though this pregnancy has cause me to have very vivid dreams every single night. last night i dreamed we were back in scotland and i was really worried that we were so far from home just in case something were to happen to tristan and i was singing that song "i'm like a bird" and just started crying when i sang "i don't know where my soul is, i don't know where my home is" i woke up with tears on my cheeks. since we found out that we're having a boy, i haven't had any dreams about having the baby, though i'm sure those will come soon enough.

off to do a million and one errands...