Sunday, May 10, 2009
the view from my place on the couch
this is what i see for most of the day. its really not bad as far as views go, especially when a particularly cute little boy decides to go outside to play, showing his mommy just how far he can throw his ball or ride his tricycle. there is my foot in the foreground adorned with a tight white sock to keep the swelling at bay. if you look closely, you can see a little choo-choo train in front of the window, which i assure you manages to escape its box no matter how many times i clean it up during the day. i know the picture isn't clear enough to tell, but back near the left corner of the fence are my pretty pink cosmos happily blooming next to tristan's 2 sunflowers that look like they're ready to burst at any moment.
after nearly 8 weeks of sitting here for most of the day, i have to say that the main feeling i've had is one of contentment. yes, there have been plenty of times where i've felt pain, frustration, panic, anxiety, boredom and just plain sadness. but God has been so wonderful in continuing to answer my prayers and filling my heart with His joy and peace daily. tristan, too has been much more content lately within the confines of the house and backyard. his Independence has been growing, for which i am grateful since the baby will be here soon.
i will be 36 weeks pregnant tomorrow. as much as i've been convinced that little samuel will show up a couple of weeks early much like his older brother, the closer the date looms, the more i pray that he'll stay put until his due date. the healing is coming along, but at a much slower pace that i anticipated. i'm still unable to walk without my walker and i can't envision holding a baby while using a walker; it just wouldn't work! and so, as i sit here on the couch with my leg propped up, feeling my baby boy bumping around in my belly, how could i not feel anything but contentment, knowing that he's safe and sound, and that every day he stays put is a day closer to me walking on my own.
at this very moment, my amazing husband is bustling around in the kitchen, preparing a mother's day feast like no other. i don't know every detail of the menu, but i do know that it will involve steak, salad, rolls and grilled shrimp with a special garlic butter sauce. for dessert: strawberry shortcake (my favorite). gramps has already arrived, presenting me with a gorgeous bouquet of flowers, and josh's parents will be coming soon. my oldest son is taking a nap and my youngest is happily kicking my ribs.
life is good.