Tuesday, April 06, 2010
so, the good news is that i didn't gain any weight over easter....i stayed exactly the same. the way i was feeling after all of that good food and sugar, i was positive that i had gone up at least 2 lbs, but was pleasantly surprised to see the number on the scale looking up familiarly at me this morning.
that being said, josh had the camera on sunday and i don't think there is anything that can give a wakeup call quite like seeing unflattering pictures of yourself. its true that i've lost quite a bit of weight and i am happy with how i look (though i'd LOVE to lose another 10), but what i noticed most in the pictures were my arms. i used to have super skinny arms. one of my past boyfriends loved to grab my arm and wave it around in the air saying, "what is THIS? this isn't an arm, its a spaghetti noodle!" which was just as irritating as it sounds. now, however, if my arms were noodles, they would be something more along the lines of manicotti rather than spaghetti. what doesn't help is that living in southern california pretty much guarantees a year-round tan and, since my arms aren't really in sleeveless shape, i've been wearing short sleeves a lot which has resulted in a very unflattering farmer's tan, highlighting the flabbiest part of my arm. this wouldn't be that big of a deal normally, but normally i wouldn't even be dreaming of stepping into a sleeveless, halter style dress in less than 3 weeks. my heart seriously just skipped a beat as i wrote that last sentence.
what do i do about this white upper, dark lower arm thing? it isn't like i have endless free time to lay out in the backyard in nothing but a bikini (i don't even own a bikini that fits me), nor do i have any free money to go get a spray tan to even me out. when i remember, i put spf 50 on the tan parts of my arms just to ensure they won't get even darker before the wedding. does anyone have any great ideas? am i just being entirely too vain? should i display my farmer tan arms with pride, while standing next to my sister, knowing full well that she looks a million times more beautiful than me, as she should?
speaking of endless free time, i am enjoying a little snippet of that right now. samuel is taking a nap and tristan is attending his second day of vacation bible school (or just "bible school" as he calls it) at our church. this is the first time i've ever dropped him off somewhere and then left, other than leaving him with family. i completely expected him to go all wobbly chinned and teary eyed yesterday, but he was totally fine standing close to his teachers and watching, wide eyed as all the bigger kids sang loudly and did actions along with the songs. i picked him up 3 hours later and he told me that he had fun and that he wanted to go back again. wow, that was easy. the house is strangely silent without hearing his little voice talking to his trains and asking me for snacks, but its really a very nice silence because i know it won't last long.