today is my due date. i've never been pregnant on my due date before. i don't think i like it very much. i've gone from feeling serene and patient about this whole thing to feeling annoyed, impatient and just done. a woman yesterday told me, "i hope you have that baby soon because you look miserable!" that's always a nice thing to hear.
when i saw my midwife yesterday, she was very surprised that i hadn't given birth yet. i'm still pretty much 4cm dilated and almost completely effaced, so she just went ahead and stripped my membranes again and asked if i'd like to schedule an induction date for this weekend. i said no, so she scheduled me an ultrasound appointment for friday instead to make sure the amniotic fluid levels are looking okay. i really really don't want to be induced, but i will be allowed to go 2 weeks past my due date before they make me. and the thought of being pregnant for another 2 weeks makes me feel like crying.
my dad arrived on monday evening (he drove down) and now it definitely seems like we're just sitting around, waiting on this little girl. the boys are loving all the attention from their grandparents though. tristan and grammie are at this very moment having a "picnic" of hotdogs and watermelon inside their little travel trailer. sam, who is his grandad's biggest fan, hasn't been very fond of sleep for the past few days (neither naps nor bedtime) because he thinks he's just going to be missing out on something. the other day i left him in his crib for 2 solid hours and he didn't nap at all, so i finally gave up much to his delight. that evening it took him almost an hour to fall asleep for his bedtime as well and i'm really hoping that he decides to get back to his regular routine once the baby arrives so that i'll be able to keep my sanity.
oh, and by the way, if you see me around town within the next couple of weeks, exclaiming, "WOW, you're STILL pregnant?!!?" my not be the best way to start our conversation. just a head's up ;)