yesterday the boys and i picked my mom up from the airport. the original plan was that she would fly down on sunday, but after my appointment with my midwife on tuesday, we decided to expedite her arrival by a few days. even though i walked into my appointment without the intention of being checked for dilation, i had had a rough day that day and my sweet midwife could tell. she sympathetically told me that i looked like i was about done and when i mentioned feeling vast amounts of pressure much lower than before, she said, "i'd really like to check you then." and i did not argue. the whole reason that i didn't want to be checked in the first place is that with both of my boys i was dilated quite early on and the doctors had given me hopes of delivering early. with tristan, my doctor was spot on (he was born 10 days early), but with samuel, i was told week after week that i could be in the hospital "any day now" and that just didn't happen, which was so discouraging.
this time was much the same, though i was given no promises. the midwife was happy to report that i'm already dilated 3-4 centimeters, very thinned out, and that the baby's head is "right there!" thus the uncomfortable pressure. she did set up my appointment for next tuesday and then said, "though i don't think you'll be making it for that one" which is the only hint she gave that labor could be imminent. the nurses, on the other hand, were filled with glee for me, one of them telling me, "just go home and have lots and lots of sex and you'll be in the hospital tomorrow for sure!"
even though i tried not to, of course i got really quite excited and called my mom as soon as i got home and told her that sunday may be just a bit too late. and so she booked a thursday flight and is here now, and i love that.....but i'd be lying if i said i wouldn't love it just a little bit more if the vague contractions i've been having were getting stronger and closer together. our plan this morning is to head down to the mall and walk and walk and let the boys get their energy out in the air conditioning before the stores open. if tristan is correct about the date he insists that ava wants to come out on, then she'll be born today....which would also be cool because she'd be sharing her birthday with her cousin jacob and 2 other little second cousins as well.
thankfully though, i'm still feeling very much at peace and not in a hurry to end this magical journey called pregnancy. every time she squirms around in her squished little home, i rub her back or try to grab her heel both dying to know what she looks like, yet knowing that soon i'll be missing those movements inside of me.