last night i de-activated my facebook account. this morning, i turned on my computer and what was the first thing i did? signed into facebook! as soon as i hit "log in" i realized what i was doing and just wailed, "nooooo!" i had to de-activate the thing all over again and then immediately changed our homepage so that won't accidentally happen again. its amazing all of these little habits that are formed without us thinking much about them.
it wasn't an easy day. neither josh nor i feel very well. samuel seems to be coming down with what will be his 2nd ear infection in the past 3 weeks and the poor little guy is just a tangle of whines and whimpers and tears and snot. tristan gets songs stuck in his head and sings a line or two all day long so that they're stuck in my head as well (today it was "zippity do dah" and yesterday it was "suzy snowflake"). ava should be perfecting the fine art of sitting up without toppling over, but would way rather be held or better yet, be mobile RIGHT NOW, and she is not really digging the pureed veggies i attempt to feed her throughout the day, preferring instead to snack on my milk at all hours of the night. all of these things combined brought on an eye splitting headache and an almost irresistible urge to sit in front of the computer and zone out while rotating tetrimos falling from the sky, but i refrained.
i'm very proud of myself. and i'm also very hopeful that reading books, making memories, prayers and telephone chats that i intended to replace my computer time will actually take place some time soon.