i'm not sure why my last post didn't allow for comments. though it's probably best that way, seeing as most of you are on facebook anyhow and have no time for commenting ;) our anniversary was actually on monday (blogger posted it as sunday) and, though we had plans for a nice quiet meal together and a dvd after dinner, tristan didn't get the memo. thankfully he waited until i was done eating, then awoke from his bedtime with a complete meltdown. once he was done crying, he refused to go back to bed, so i just gave up and kept him awake with us for awhile and he was quite happy, for the most part. he did go back to sleep eventually, and we did get some alone time that evening, but it wasn't quite the anniversary evening i had planned in my head!
josh bought me a gorgeous hanging basket and now that i'm typing this i wish i had taken a picture of it to post. it's so perfect that at first i thought the flowers were fake! this saturday we're going out for a proper anniversary dinner at our favorite restaraunt for filet mignon, steak and lobster. mmmm... i really need to stop worrying about how tristan will do at my in law's while we go out. he's been having random meltdowns lately and doesn't do too well with anyone other than josh and i so....i have no doubt that he may scream the ENTIRE time we're gone. i'm praying that somehow God will help me concentrate only on my husband that evening and help me to not think about tristan losing his voice from crying. i so need this time away with just josh. we haven't had a date in months and i find that every time i manage to get away without tristan, i'm always stressed and rushing to get back home in case he's having a meltdown (and half of the time he is!) i had a mini meltdown of my own today, just exhausted from having a job that is 24/7 without many breaks.
i don't mean to complain here, it just sometimes feels good to be able to vent a bit and to know that those who are reading this care and that many of you have been where i am and have survived! i tell you what though, this whole mommy thing has sure made me admire those of you who have more than one kid!! i can't even fathom two at the moment!
my mom taught me that when you're feeling down a good thing to do is to think of things to look forward to. i am looking forward to tristan being past this stage (okay, so that doesn't really count!) i am looking forward to enjoying a lovely romantic dinner ALONE with my husband. i am looking forward to seeing my entire family at the same time (which hasn't happened in three years) in july. i am looking forward to planting my new flower bed. i am looking forward to falling asleep tonight.